It’s weird when things get heavy on my heart I tend to blog. I’m not sure if it helps anyone else but it does make me feel somewhat better. The title of this blog…probably the younger people won’t recognize. It was a song that Anne Murray sang. It always applies every-time I think of it.
I have been so heavy hearted for a minute but when Charlie Kirk died it did hurt my heart so much worse. I assume because I watched it happen. I can’t unsee it. I just can’t unsee the reactions either. I don’t think at any point in my life have I ever wanted to riot or hurt someone because I didn’t agree with them. I am for the most part a pretty grey area girl except for loving Jesus. I mean I don’t agree 100 percent with the left or the right but I do always adhere to grace and the love of Jesus. I know he’s not the first assassination or the last but I just get so sick of both sides. Trust me, I need Jesus daily and I’m a true example of grace not deserved but here I am taking it.
Our pastor talked about basically being a good read of people. Having a discerning spirit. I do not have one I fear. I have a lot of what my Granny Gert had. I want to see the good. I give a 100 chances and then 15 more. I am a broken record when it comes to boundaries. I guess because I want to believe there is good in all of us. Even that young guy who shot him. Someone failed him, or he got off track or maybe he was a pawn in a bigger plan. We will never know. Just know we can’t fight an eye for an eye no matter what.
People say daily prayer isn’t enough. To have a change you have to be it. But I’ve seen my mom be steadfast in her prayer and I’ve seen chains break. I’ve also seen things not happen when prayer was all we had.
I guess there is no easy answer. I just turn off the news because it’s a lot. I’m not burying my head in the sand but I just needed a good night without sadness.
“There’s a local paper rolled up in a rubber band
One more sad story’s one more than I can stand
Just once, how I’d like to see the headline say
Not much to print today, can’t find nothing bad to say
Because nobody robbed a liquor store on the lower part of town
Nobody OD’d, nobody burned a single building down (ooh)
Nobody fired a shot in anger, nobody had to die in vain (ah)
We sure could use a little good news today”
That’s the song… or the gist of it. Wouldn’t it be glorious if it read like that ? Would we even believe it or are we so conditioned to want to see the bad. I remember in Covid times there was a Instagram page that was just for good stuff. Maybe we bring it back… maybe I’m dreaming. I just miss when life was simple or when I thought it was. Going to the mall and finding an outfit for the game was your biggest concern. Now our children have to go to school and their concerns far outweighed ours. I just wish for us to come together. Be the change you want to see or extend kindness. Love on people who are different. Love on people who are hurting. Be the friend to others you want in your corner. I am talking to myself alot here. Prayer.. by the way.. it does still work. May not change all the things but it sure doesn’t hurt. It has changed mine so many times I can’t count.❤️
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