What a year!!!! I mean 46 you have been one of my most memorable years of late. Turning 46 was not the best birthday itself but the year has not totally disappointed. It even surprised me in my last week before turning 47. If you learn from it and make some memories along the way, then it’s a great year I’d say. I think to do my year it’s justice , I am going to break down what I hated, what I loved and what I learned. (I know you’re dying to know)
So let’s start with the negative… I hate Covid. I also hate cancer because it stole from those I love this year too. Let’s say it correctly, COVID-19…I hate what it stole from me personally, financially and mentally. I hate the way it crippled our nation. I hate how it stopped our churches. How it stole people I love. I just hate it. I also hate how our country is now so divided. I hate the politics this year. I hate that I had some great friends who refuse to talk to me because I don’t 100 percent agree with everything they want to convey.. I mean I’m as liberal as you can get on some issues and as conservative on others. I can respect your views as long as you can mine. This year I also realized I’m someone who envisions things the way they should go and 7 out of 10 times, they don’t come to pass. It’s not the best personality trait but I tend to play this card a lot. Hence the reason I hate it. The girl who always sees it one way and it happens the other. Control. It’s a problem. I don’t like to be out of control and guess what….I’m never fully in control. Admitting your problem is the first step. Some of you should try it. (Best line right there and will be most overlooked) That just leads me to this little jewel. “Your word”… it means a lot to me. That’s my biggest one. Perhaps it’s had the most effect on me. Even when pressed.. I’ll always try so hard to be there for my people. Sometimes I fail and if I love you I’m in your corner always. But with this always give grace. I get it daily so also give it back. So there’s that. My work. Whew the basement took me to all kinds of feels. (Not always the best but it had moments) We were trucking along and then boom. My Work…I had it. I lost it. I thought it wasn’t coming back. It finally did and wow was it stronger then it ever has been. I’ve lost some customers and gained way more then I deserve. Work is my safe haven and it shouldn’t be but I find it’s the only place I have semi-control. (But do I really?) Then there’s the thing I hate that brings me such happiness then ends with sadness…gifts. (Not always but..) If you are reading this and I haven’t given you a gift, then we are probably great friends and KNOW I will never buy you one. But for real.. it’s truly the kiss of death for some friendships with me. I love people.. I give you a gift. Then they vanish. I love you.. and I don’t.. you stay for ever😂😂😂 All these years of living and y’all just know I’m talking a big game. I’m still gonna buy the dang gifts. Sometimes it works.. like 4/10 times. Lol. I just wish when it doesn’t work, it didn’t come with a bad end result. I am done with the cons. We are headed to a happy paragraph. (Insert 🙌🏻)
I love my family. My girls just keep surpassing what I deserve yearly. I love who loves my girls. The people who play roles in Catie and Callies life are instrumental in making them great kids. Scotty and I are blessed to have good role models in their lives. We have to work hard and both of us pull our weight in different areas. We both agree if we are doing anything right, its the way our girls are turning out. Not perfect for everyone but it works for them. Oh I love my “thick and thin friends”. They are a select few and they are never wavering. No matter the situation, the fallout, the outcome.. their word is solid. Means more then anything I could write. My parents. Even when Covid hit, they have been consistent in my girls and my world. (Scottys parents too) Whatever way they can maneuver to help they’ll do it. My brother, Kristin and Doodle have helped me so much run my little world this year. From organizing to eating healthy they have us in check. My work girls have all had hard seasons this year but we have pushed through and gotten stronger. Our goals may all be different but our love for each other is the same. Also who would leave out the best customers who blessed me so much every time they sit in my chair. I love them all for how they make me see the world. (Especially this year) I will have to say though the very best part of this year is I found a part of me I thought I lost. At “46”!!!!! I did meet another part we called “Alexa” but she went back after a few months.( like an alter ego)😉 I realized and already knew that I have some major flaws, body imperfections and social anxiety (that is improving).. even with ALLL that, I still love me. I’m a mess, I’m silly, I can be moody and get quiet when I’m uneasy. I apologize when needed and when it’s not. Oh but guess what…IM STILL STANDING. 2020, you didn’t break me. I’m a lot of things but I’m resilient as hell. I’ll come back stronger the next time. I’ll love harder, fight for the underdog and believe there are still good people left out there. I forgot the most important thing I realized at 46. I AM REMARKABLE!!
So 46 has given me lots to talk about. Some good, some bad, and some indifferent. I’ve learned people come into your life for seasons. Some stay and some go. Learn from them. If they stay that’s great but if they go…Let them go!!! (In my best Madea voice) I learned I can make funny videos and TikToks.( I mean I think they are funny) I’ve learned I can decorate on a dime. I’ve learned I love online shopping and hate malls. I’ve learned I watched too much tv in the past. I’ve learned I can save money and live on a budget if needed. I’ve learned if I want a fence then I’ll save for it. Sometimes life throws you curves and it puts things on back burners but I’m gonna get that fence. Don’t let anyone tell you that you’re not capable of doing what you set your mind to. Any of your dreams you have are attainable. Oh yeah…Make that crazy video, laugh at yourself and maybe get a tattoo or two. 😳
I’m walking into 47 with a sore knee, some still pretty “hot legs”😉, some crazy teeth issues, but some great lashes. This isn’t the life I had envisioned at 21 but who has that life. Someone on “fakebook”? In some ways maybe it’s better. The year taught me that even if I’m doing my best at navigating through this thing I call life, its ok. So I’m coming for you 47… you may not have the stories 46 did but I have faith you’ll make your own as we go along. Make your day count my friends. ❤️ Big time thanks for reading all my blogs this year. Hopefully like wine, they’ll get better with age. Haha
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